i had a talk with a good friend today... and it made me notice how life was shiti was one of those people who thought that it could never be this way but its true about what they say that you lose all your friends...ive been feeling like shit lately and being alone made see that there are alot of thing sthat i have never noticed that i notice now, and it did not mae me feel any better... ive had this feeling for a while now and it hasnt been great i tried toforget about it but i cant whatever i try nothing works, happiness isnt hard to find cause its either you have it or you dont and i obviously dont. if you really knew how it was to be me you would probably would tell me how i can live this day to day but the only answer that i could probably give you is i dont know.. i guess growing up also means that you get depressed more or maybe is it just a few people or is it just me who knows? all i know that i cant findit in myself to be happy for anymore i cant find it in myself to be the person everybody thought i was and i cant find it anymore to live the way i do, and i cant find it in myself to smile and say ive had a good day today
.......... if you thought that i smile, if you look deeper inside youd see that its a smile that means nothing but to feel sad
